You tied your hair in knots
And on your neck you hung the medals
of forgotten saints
You told me they'd protect you
From bright needles and cold hospital rooms
You've wasted away in reverse
Your yellow skin can't contain
all your bursting organs
Where they float suspended
They're pulling you apart at the seams
If you wrap yourself up in sheets
And lay in the corner
Maybe you can pretend you dont exist
Like the grasping hands, or the stagnant water
in jars on bedside tables
I understand, you just want to sleep
Tired of being poked and prodded
In your tender stomach
By blank faced doctors who don't know anything
Well
His eyes were coffee stains
but he tasted like wine.
He held me hostage
when all I wanted to do was
count cracks on the ceiling
in hopes it would fall.
The pulling of my hair
wasn't an adequate way
to release the pain.
So I dug it out of me
chewed it up
and swallowed
[all these little white lies]
I don't expect you
to save me again.